i'm a college junior bio major, my grades arne't bad but they're not great, i'm shooting to get into an accelerated RN program and set into my career after that. I have my plan and i know what i want to do but why do i feel so stuck? like my time from here to my career is just whatever, blah.
i seek content in simply things and just being in solitude. i have a loving boyfriend and great friends but why don't i feel like this is it?
sometimes when i feel stability, i don't want it to change, but knowing life change is ALWAYS constant. how do i accept change in my life without trying to hold on to the past?
maybe life is all about finding out and maintaining a balance..
i want to gain some insight from the elder, because i feel that wisdom and knowledge comes with age.Life advice from the wise?
i think wisdom...sometimes...comes with experience, but the world is full of people who have spent their whole lives either making the same mistakes over and over or having just settled into the first few they've made and 'settled'.
i have had a true roller-coaster of a life already (i'm 'only' in my late thirties =D) and seen the most amazing things and the most terrible imaginable.
my ONLY regrets...i don't have many...are about things that i HAVEN'T done - relationships i could have tried harder at, things i could have said that i was afraid of the consequences of, opportunities missed.
i 'drifted' until my late 20's and then found a way of life and work that has kept me utterly enthralled ever since and it was something i have ALWAYS had a gift for - i just never thought i could actually make a life out of it.
the happier and more successful people i know ALL have this in common - they have found, in the deepest parts of their hearts something they are truly passionate about and have followed that, whatever it was.
if you are open to 'spiritual' things you might research something called the soul gesture. i was taught this as a simple physical gesture that somehow expresses your purpose, your meaning, your 'home' in this life. you might be able to intuit this for yourself.(be warned - finding someone who can actually see this in you for real might be hard - there are sooo many of us who want to help people, or believe we can when we are just hiding from ourselves...but when you meet the good ones your heart will let you know, i think). i found that helpful in understanding the direction i wanted to go in life.
if your looking for the deeper meaning in life i'd recommend a book called 'the reality game' by Rowan...but i recommend that to everyone, pretty much! =P
i think if you're finding life bland and uninspiring at the moment it's probably because you haven't found what you really want to do or perhaps just some part of you is being denied in this world - either by you, your circumstances or your past.
the journey to finding that can be tough. ..boring.. .soul-wracking. ..grey... whatever, and i think of that bit as The Wilderness Years! but you learn stuff about yoursellf and the world that will be important later on.
find your heart and follow it.
=)
EDIT - o, and don't let people 'diagnose' you with depression when you are just sad - grieving is important...even if your grief is about something that HASN'T happened, instead of something that has. grief just lets us know that there is something valuable that we are missing and interrupting that process, however tough it is to go through, ruins peoples lives. i've seen tooo many clienst diagnosed as depressed by psychiatrists and doctors who simply weren't interested in the fact that the person had every right to be sad about what was going on in their lives. easy answers are rarely more than band-aids.Life advice from the wise?
My first thought reading that is DEPRESSION honey!!! However, sometimes life seems to be going nowhere and doing it slowly. Especially when you are ';waiting'; on things to get here.Life goes faster than you are aware at the moment. I would recommend a therapist, councelor, or perhaps a psychiatrist to at least rule out depression. If you are depressed, it only gets worse from here.
As far as accepting change without holding onto the past.... reflect on your accomplishments, happy days, favorite things, and then think of the stuff that has changed, how it has changed and what that means to you, does it make you happy, satisfied, scared, content, interested....?. It all comes together, and once again, if it doesn't, someone who is impartial to your life can help you sort through those things.
Of course, when we are in our comfort zone, we don't want it to change. Thats pretty normal. You seem to have good goals and plans,,just be patient, do your work and you will get there. It's o.k. to be content with the simple life because we never know when things will change and what challenges we will face so enjoy the simplicity for now. Be grateful for what you have and have had and keep moving forward. Good Luck!!!
You have chosen a field that is all about change. Medicine is a constant updating and learning field. New technology, astounding strides in laser and microscopic surgery, medical and imaging advancment is mind boggeling. If change is not your thing, maybe you chose the wrong field. Or maybe you should choose a hobby that satisfies your quiet, peaceful needs like gardening or something equally soothing and stress free. But your carreer choice is one of fast paced, on the go, ever changing, minute to minute crisis and not likely to be one that will sit well with your stated personality preference. So it seems you have some choices to make. And my suggestion is to think about it long and hard before you invest a lot of time and effort into an education that will not make you happy. Find out what really makes you happy.
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